That is a pretty accurate word to describe my last few weeks.
I was hoping that I would be able to slow down a little and get back into a good routine but that hasn’t been the case. My husband has been deployed for 1 month. The months prior to his deployment were insanely busy and stressful, my brain was on overload. I was really looking forward to getting back to normal. Except, normal didn’t come. Our lives are on pause, or so it feels like, until he returns. Getting motivated to do anything is a challenge. Everything seems more of a chore than it already was. I feel lost, like a part of who I am supposed to be is gone. I am sure these feelings are normal but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with. I want these feelings to go away, I want to be able to go through my day without this big ball of heaviness on my heart. I want an easy fix.
I was driving home the other day from dropping my oldest off at school and the DJ on the radio started talking about this verse.
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Exodus tells the history of God delivering the Israelites from Egypt. The Egyptians were hot on the Israelites trail and there was nowhere for them to go, there were two options, either turning back to the people that were trying to kill them or forward into the sea. The Israelites were afraid for their lives, asking Moses why did you take us from Egypt just so we could die in the dessert? Moses replied, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14:13-14). And, sure enough God had this, he tells Moses to raise his staff and extend his hands over the sea and with that the sea was parted! The Israelites walked right down the middle of the sea on dry ground. The Egyptians tried fallowing but were swallowed up by the sea. You see GOD will FIGHT for YOU! It doesn’t matter what you are going through, be still and let God fight.
I am not very good at letting God fight for me. I feel like my problems are minor in comparison to others, God has bigger things to deal with then my petty little problems. Truthfully, I think part of my issue is that I want to try to solve these problems on my own without God’s help because I don’t want to wait for the answer. I want something now. But I need to be still, I need to listen, I need to pray, and I need to let God fight for me.
I am not sure what you are going through today. Maybe you have a hard decision to make, a conflict with a friend, a marriage falling apart, a broken heart, a terminal illness, or you are just in a funk. I am here to tell you (and myself) that God loves us, we are his children, and he will fight for us. We just have to be still and let him.